i am SO sick and TIRED of shitty friends.
im TIRED of being let down
im TIRED of being ditched
im TIRED of being fifth or sixth or, fuck, fiftieth best
im TIRED of everyone thinking about themselves before anyone elses feelings.

fuck, is it impossible to be a good friend?
because honestly, i don't know anymore.
i try my best and i think i do a pretty good job, but i deffinetly don't see it reflected upon myself.

ESPECIALLY when i introduce my BEST friends to people, then they get all fucking lovey dovey with them (this more than twice) and then they just end up hanging out all the time. UM, WTF, I'M STILL HERE. REMEMBER ME? YOU'RE OLD BEST FRIEND? im hella just plain tired of people in general.
people need to be more kind and giving and sympathetic and shit.

this is all probably coming from (and hopefully...)PMS. i know i feel like this all the time, but this time it's a straight outburst. i just want to walk out of my house and fight the first person i see. smash their face into the fucking ground until they bleed like crazy, then pull out every single fucking tooth from their mouth to put on a fucking chain. and honey, that's not goddamn all. i would find anything i could to jam into their skin, their skull, ANYWHERE. their armpit, FUCK I JUST WANT TO HURT SOMEONE SO GODDAMN BAD THAT THEY BEG TO STOP. godFUCKING DAMMIT IM TIRED OF BAD FUCKING FREADS. WTF IS IT REALLY THAT HARD TO THINK OF SOMEONE YOU CARE ABOUT??

this is where the part comes in where i think nobody cares.
and i'll tell people that i feel this and they hjust go 'oh, nononono' and everything goes out the other ear because i've heard it so many goddamn times before.

I'M SICK OF BEING DISSAPPOINTED BY THE PEOPLE I LOVE THAT I CARE ABOUT SO MUCH I WOULD DIE FOR THEM. and then they won't even take the time out of THEIR day to fucking drive from milpitas.





WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK.












dear world, i hope you shatter.

last night i was doing work.
work.
work.
work.
then some fun work.
then watched tv.
i watched several episodes of hannah montana, two episodes of i love new york and a little bit of a shot at love. (all saved on my dvr hahaha, so no, i wasn't just channel searching)
and i realized that  I LOVE NEW YORK.
so, i am currently searching for a large picture of the I LOVE NEW YORK chain, so i can make it!
the chain
so if you see a LARGE picture of one anywhere, i would love it if you could send me this picture.
then, while watching a little of tila tequila, i heard her say
"i just love people. i don't discriminate against race or gender."
(or something of that sort)
and it got me thinking...
how CAN people be straight and say they aren't discriminatory?
i myself think that about me...it doesn't quite make sense.
if you like all people equally, then how can you be straight? or lesbian? or gay?
if you take each person personally, it shouldn't matter their gender.
not all women are the same.
not all men are the same.
oi, confusing stuff...

anywhoo.
tomorrow i'm going to:
oakland tech
then vine street salon in berkley
then the oakland zoo!
basically, if i don't intern at vine street then i'll be interning at the zoo.
and to be honest, i deffinetly wouldn't be discontent about that.
BECAUSE ANIMALS ARE MY LOVEEEEE!
um so yeah.
okay, bye.

last night i was doing work.
work.
work.
work.
then some fun work.
then watched tv.
i watched several episodes of hannah montana, two episodes of i love new york and a little bit of a shot at love. (all saved on my dvr hahaha, so no, i wasn't just channel searching)
and i realized that  I LOVE NEW YORK.
so, i am currently searching for a large picture of the I LOVE NEW YORK chain, so i can make it!
<a href="http://i194.photobucket.com/albums/z106/HBICJOSEPH/NY123456.jpg">the chain</a>
so if you see a LARGE picture of one anywhere, i would love it if you could send me this picture.
then, while watching a little of tila tequila, i heard her say
"i just love people. i don't discriminate against race or gender."
(or something of that sort)
and it got me thinking...
how CAN people be straight and say they aren't discriminatory?
i myself think that about me...it doesn't quite make sense.
if you like all people equally, then how can you be straight? or lesbian? or gay?
if you take each person personally, it shouldn't matter their gender.
not all women are the same.
not all men are the same.
oi, confusing stuff...

anywhoo.
tomorrow i'm going to:
oakland tech
then vine street salon in berkley
then the oakland zoo!
basically, if i don't intern at vine street then i'll be interning at the zoo.
and to be honest, i deffinetly wouldn't be discontent about that.
BECAUSE ANIMALS ARE MY LOVEEEEE!
um so yeah.
okay, bye.